Morgan and a little bit more...

I’ve been settling down over here after I moved. A new video is in the making though. I really hope you’ll enjoy it. :) I certainly had fun doing the video.

Many wonder why I am the way I am. Selfish, egoistical, aggresive and single track minded.

The way I was rendered made me this way. I just believe life is way too short for you to just bum around and do nothing about it. I understand if some would rather a simple happy life but are you for real? So many things in this world to explore and you want to just survive?

I used to think that way until one day I met a guy who thought like me but I was marveling at his private jets and boats and suites. He told me don’t put all you have to waste. I wouldn’t push it out there that I’m talented, I just do what I love and I’m lucky to have my family and friends support me. If you are not doing what you love and being empathatical about your life not being the way it should be, you are just makin excuses. There is always a way, you just gotta work extra hard now that things are not the way it should be.

Being brought up in a little town with stereotypical people and a small town mentality mindset, I was forced by the environment I was in to put in extra effort. I need to be out there, and i take every chance i can. Optimism is a must, pessimist should piss on themselves.

I’m really sorry if I can be a little single track minded but I cannot handle little hopeless people in my life. I’m picky who I hang around with and those are the ones I treasure. Let’s face it, you are only around people who benefits you one way or another. We are instruments to each others well being. Yes that includes your relationships with your family and friends.

That’s all I have for now. More will come. Now at least you know why I am.

You only have one shot, make it happen.

Love, M.

As much as I hate to admit it. I miss it. Could I have misread care and passion for neediness and insecurity? Could be a move that haunts and did haunt me, until today. Probably the reason why I am how I am today. But part of me is glad that she is happy. I still see a bit of the then ‘us’ in everything I do. Many of the things I have around me were because of then. I was obsessed. Maybe I still am.

I did try to stop looking back and move the fuck on. But it’s the fear that haunts me, that every move I make could hit a black spot or a jackpot. We only have one shot to get what we want, then it’s a long interval before we get one more.

2 years and my subconscious now tells me I fucked up.

You know I was thinking, the rest of my ‘social networks’ are really catered and tailored to others. I was beginning to think it could possibly hinder my writing skills. Then I thought, Tumblr could be a good outlet. I wouldn’t promote it, yet, it’s accesible to many. If you happen to stumble upon my tumblr, keep it to yourself? Think of it as an insight to my thoughts and perceptions (could be a lil twisted though). You are always welcomed to bring it up the next time we chance upon each other.

So I guess I found the purpose of my tumblr. It’s now my expression sanctuary.

Love, M.